Russell Frantom’s thoughts on the paranormal intertwined with hallucinations.

I used to be a dedicated atheist.. but I’ve experienced too much in my lifetime at this point for ‘nothing’ to be a possibility.. I’ve experienced other worldly things.. I have seen different dimensions.. There are ways to see things here on earth that are between one realm and another. Sleep deprivation and certain substances can get you to these points. You wouldn’t understand unless you experienced it.. It is too complex for the mind to create.. One time, I was awake for four days and I was stuck in a dark carnival… the vacuum turned into an evil clown, and the cord and tubes looked like flowing dreadlocks. The things appeared mostly stationary, like a gif image from back in the day- just repetitive and mostly stationary. But I saw someone run down the hallway and I chased after and there was nobody there, and then I got stuck in the bathroom because an evil clown peered out from down the hallway. I got so scared I called my partner and was completely flustered and was on so much Adderall and awake for days and I was absolutely terrified.. another time I was walking up the stairs and a naked wrestler who looked like butterbean was standing there with a terrifying evil face and I about fell down the stairs… I am willing to believe these events were created in my mind and were instigated by the circumstances, lack of sleep and pills.. but idk.. I have also experienced the paranormal.. Our home is very old, and has a dark history.. I did my magic and my rituals and all of that down in the basement, and im not sure if that is what caused it- but this house was haunted for a good while. A very small catlike mist and we both kept seeing it. I was half asleep and saw a large man walk down our staircase one night.. I was asleep upstairs one time, and all of the sudden footsteps were all around me and so I could not sleep upstairs now.. In the past, a friend and I used to do magical rituals, and we had a legitimate alien encounter – we saw ghosts together.. She was my best friend and I still love her, her name is Jocelyn and I miss her.. but anyway, we can move things with our minds.. she is the only other person I’ve ever met who can do it, and together, we both conjured something up one night that knocked a chucky doll off the chair it was propped up on.. I have so many different stories like this… So, with all of that being said, that is why i am willing to believe there’s a possibility that SOME hallucinations caused by certain circumstances might actually be paranormal. A few years ago, I tried dmt for the first and only time.. in many ways, it screwed me up.. I always warn everyone to just be cautious and understand there are potential risks.. Because what an experience.. I couldn’t remember much after it. The hardest and most satisfying and euphoric trip I ever went on was when I was doing ketamine… that wasn’t at all the same as going to a different universe, but it improved earth in so many ways at the time.. im very happy I stopped using and experimenting with all of that.. I got everything out of my system years ago.. I am just glad I am sober.. do I regret anything? No.. there’s just an infinite amount of stories I could tell about these topics..